The author of 'One Woman's Journey Through Sex and Porn Addiction' revealed how she hosts parties four times a week so she could find men for sex.
Porn Addicted Woman Reveals She Threw Several Parties A Week To Find Men For Sex
Erica Garza, 35 became addicted to sex at age 12.
Garza struggled to have intercourse without watching X-rated films.
She writes in her book how she managed to get rid of sex addiction.
The Sunday Times Magazine reports:
"After I’d had enough tequila and was feeling ballsy, I’d rave about porn. Sometimes I took out my laptop and played some of the nicer clips as if I were simply turning on the radio."
"And every time I did these things or confessed to hating condoms, or to have an unusually high sex drive, I hoped the guys liked me even more than they seemed to."
"I was one of them, I thought, and not like other girls."
"When my confessions would elicit laughs or high-fives or nods of recognition, I’d feel a rush of what I thought was intimacy."
She used to hide with her computer in the bedroom closet so she would not be caught while watching porn.
She nearly got to the phase where she couldn't imagine intercourse without her crutch after losing her virginity at 17.
She spent the whole day in bed watching porn videos.
Her favorite scenes featured "two sweaty women, 50 horny men, a warehouse, a harness, a hair dryer, and a taxicab."
She said: "Afterwards, I would feel broken, unlovable, worthless and used."
"But I was using men for my own needs, too."
To kick her porn addiction she decided to go to Bali, Indonesia, where she met her husband.
Erica said:
"We watched porn at the beginning because that was my habit, but he wanted me to talk about why I used porn, and nobody had ever done that before. For the first time, I really felt that I could be safe, supported and reveal who I was."
He analyzed the root cause of her addiction.
She also went to therapy and practiced yoga in an effort to help curb her addiction.
Erica now says she uses porn 'healthily'.
"I realized that I’m not alone, that it’s OK, I just wanted to stop feeling the shame aspect of it, and I succeeded."